bliss
noun - \ˈblis\
perfect happiness; great joy.
As the months narrow down to the day I turn 30, I look at my life and begin to reassess my life decisions, goals, dreams, and aspirations. I wonder if I'm doing life right. I've conquered so many battles and hurdled over so many obstacles, especially in the recent years, that now I look back and am so grateful for God's mercy and grace over my life.
I was drawn to people pleasing. At the same time I felt the need to portray an image of myself to others about who I was -- always positive, happy, smiling, and upbeat. In reality, I was drowning in fear -- in fear of what others would think of me if they knew my truths. But how can I embrace all of who I am, as a wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter, professional, if I can't face my own reality? There were moments I was alone and I would cry and ask -- Who am I? - Who did I become? - What am I doing? - When did life get this bad? - When did the spirit of fear take over my life? - Why did I lose everything? - Why did I hurt the people I love? - Why did I do this? - Why did I do that?
Fast forward to today >>>>>
2017 has been an incredible journey of self-rediscovery. I'm learning how to let go of my control issues, insecurities, and unhealthy relationships. I can do a lot, but I cannot change everything or anyone. I'm learning how to be a better wife to my husband, a better mother to my children, a more efficient worker, a more reliable friend, a loving daughter/sister, and a better follower of Christ. Sometimes there's a lot of clutter in my head, and I am learning who I can de-clutter with. I've rediscovered the beauty and peacefulness of journaling, something I used to do all the time.
I am a multi-faceted woman, and I am learning to embrace it all ---
I welcome you to my blog as I take my heels off, roll up my sleeves, and make some lemonade.
I was drawn to people pleasing. At the same time I felt the need to portray an image of myself to others about who I was -- always positive, happy, smiling, and upbeat. In reality, I was drowning in fear -- in fear of what others would think of me if they knew my truths. But how can I embrace all of who I am, as a wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter, professional, if I can't face my own reality? There were moments I was alone and I would cry and ask -- Who am I? - Who did I become? - What am I doing? - When did life get this bad? - When did the spirit of fear take over my life? - Why did I lose everything? - Why did I hurt the people I love? - Why did I do this? - Why did I do that?
Questions. Questions... and more questions.
And I didn't have the answers.
Fast forward to today >>>>>
2017 has been an incredible journey of self-rediscovery. I'm learning how to let go of my control issues, insecurities, and unhealthy relationships. I can do a lot, but I cannot change everything or anyone. I'm learning how to be a better wife to my husband, a better mother to my children, a more efficient worker, a more reliable friend, a loving daughter/sister, and a better follower of Christ. Sometimes there's a lot of clutter in my head, and I am learning who I can de-clutter with. I've rediscovered the beauty and peacefulness of journaling, something I used to do all the time.
I am a multi-faceted woman, and I am learning to embrace it all ---
the good, the bad, the ugly.
When life gives you lemons...
I welcome you to my blog as I take my heels off, roll up my sleeves, and make some lemonade.
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